that’s really all anyone needs and that’s what you gave me. it’s like all the bad things that happened in the past year have been erased because the whole time i was just waiting for you to come around. waiting for you to sweep me off my feet and tell me all the things i’ve been dying to hear. anything i did that was stupid or wrong doesn’t even matter anymore. my best moments of 2011 happened in the last few hours of the year. i don’t really know what we’re doing. i don’t know how things are going to turn out, but i do know that i’m myself when i’m around you and that’s something i haven’t been able to be in a long time. i’m done with reliving and dwelling on all the shit that has happened. it can’t be changed and the only thing that i can do now is to not pass up this potentially amazing opportunity because i’m scared that i could get hurt in the end. but i’m not even scared which is the weird part. you instantly put me at ease because i know that you like me for me, for the right reasons, not for the wrong ones, and that’s why this is so different from anything that has happened before.
the new year holds massive amounts of potential. graduation, the summer of total and complete freedom, picking a college and going off to build a new life, and above everything else starting again, shedding the stigmas of the past year and just letting everything get better. ~~
